She had been dying to get to the merge.
But once there she leaves Robinson.
For TV4, Alva Trané now tells the reason why she canceled her participation.
– I am still disappointed, she says.
In Robinson, the participants have finally managed to get to the merger, a milestone for several. Alva Trané is one of the participants who both longed and got there – but then she cancels her participation and goes home.
– I hope that at some point in the future I can look back on this and feel proud of myself, but now it feels very far away, says Alva in the program.
In Robinson, viewers can see how she gathers the group and informs them that she has to leave due to medical reasons. For TV4, she now tells more about the defection.
– I was so bad, I couldn’t do anything. I had been for so long but in the last week it didn’t work anymore. It doesn’t show on TV, but I received a lot of medication and such to feel better, says Alva.
“I’m still disappointed that it ended there”
Even today, Alva finds it difficult to look back on how her Robinson adventure ended.
– It felt so stupid, such a sad ending to everything. I wanted to continue with everything and everyone who was there, it felt really boring. I was just so disappointed in myself and that my body just completely gave up, that nothing more was possible, she says.
– I’m still not proud, I’m very hard on myself. I’m still disappointed that it ended there. I find it very difficult to look back and feel proud of my performance.
How has it been to recover from the program?
– It took time, it still takes time. After such a program you are greatly affected, both positively and negatively, physically and psychologically. Some things I still haven’t recovered from, some things I still have problems with. But I think several of us have.
– It’s so different. In a way it was tough because you became like a family, you feel alone and just want to be with them. But physically so… there are some things I don’t want to go into. But I’ve had a lot of trouble sleeping. I’m a very frozen person, but after the show I can’t get warm. It’s probably not the toughest, but I don’t want to go into everything. But I don’t regret anything! I would do it over every day of the week, if I had been asked again I would have said yes.