The streamer Antonia “Reved” Staab (23) explained in a live stream on Twitch on Sunday, May 5, 2024 what consequences her relationship with cosplayer Anissa “Anni The Duck” Baddour (26) has on her: She is suffering from a post -traumatic stress disorder, which caused muscle spasms throughout the body. She also reports a dissociative disorder.
This is the situation:
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“Permanent Fight or Flight mode”
This is what Reved says: The streamer says:
How does she suffer from the after-effects? The streamer says that the time she spent with Anni The Duck in Berlin gave rise to many problems that she is still struggling with now.
The chronic headaches that led her to take a break from Twitch come from an extreme form of muscle tension that extends over the shoulders into the neck, forming fascia there and shortening the muscles. The actual reason for the muscle tension is post-traumatic stress disorder, probably from the time of the relationship.
“It’s one of those terms that I never thought would play any role in my life until I was diagnosed.”
She says she suffered from headaches as a child – but it was only in the last three years, since she had lived with Anni The Duck in Berlin, that the headaches had worsened to the point that she was taking medication for them several times a week.
Reved says she really wanted to find a physical cause for the problems, but doctors kept asking her if there was something psychological behind it:
“I didn’t want to accept it. I thought to myself: Hey, I haven’t had it that bad in my life. Why should I be so burdened now? So what’s going on?”
She is now undergoing trauma therapy: In Berlin she lived with a dissociative disorder, saw herself as if through a fog or in the third person, often couldn’t remember details, forgot what she ate or which film she saw. Couldn’t even remember a conversation with her mother, who told her about a death in the family.
Even when Reved spit out blood, Anni said it wasn’t that bad
Couldn’t she talk to Anni about her problems? Reved describes a scene in which she explained to her then-girlfriend that she wasn’t feeling well and that she had the feeling that she was falling into a depressive hole.
Anni replied that she didn’t believe that. Reved laughs way too much during the day and gets her life together.
Even when Reved spit up blood and paramedics said it was apparently due to extreme stress, Anni reassured them that it wasn’t that bad. Her ex-boyfriend had that too. Reved should go to sleep and things will be better tomorrow.
Because the statements came from a person who had a lot of expertise on the subject of depression and who was so close to her, Reved did not take the complaints seriously and therefore did not go to the doctor. Reved made doctor’s appointments for Anni The Duck, drove her to treatment and waited for her there.
Reved complains about body shaming
This is what Reved says about her relationship with Anni The Duck: Something happened in the relationship that makes Reved so uncomfortable that she doesn’t talk about it with friends or her therapist:
“But what I can say, which was an issue almost every day, was body shaming: I had too much on my hips and was no longer attractive. Then I had too little on my hips and looked almost like Sophia Thiel and she no longer found that attractive. I’d do my eyeliner wrong, my makeup would be wrong, I’d style my hair wrong. Bucket hats no longer suit me. I should go to the other hairdresser. All this, all these comments, all these taunts, this “Look, I find this person super attractive and he’s the exact opposite of me.”
Reved says she felt more worthless in the relationship every day.
This is how the relationship ended
Then why did she stay with her for so long? Reved says she believed in “true love” and thought that if she just improved, the relationship would be fine. Apparently she was emotionally dependent. She believed in the relationship until the end. Reved even wanted to save the relationship with couples therapy; only when Anni The Duck refused this therapy did Reved leave.
She dated a completely different person than the person she was with. In any case, there is a big discrepancy between how Anni The Duck appears on the internet and what she really is.
In retrospect, Reved couldn’t really explain why she stuck with the relationship for so long. She wished she had a better answer to that question.
What does Anni The Duck say? There is currently no comment from Anni The Duck on Reved’s statements. We at MeinMMO have asked her for a statement and will publish it if it comes.
Reved’s statements were triggered by a statement from streamer Mowky about Anni The Duck. Mowky was considered a friend of Anni The Duck and was also seen in an ARD documentary in which the influencer was introduced: “Here comes The Brain” – ARD documentary about newcomers shows German Twitch streamer