Isabella Löwengrip on the eating disorder: “Lost so many years”

We have been able to follow Löwengrip for many years of her life, but there is a part she has not shown outwardly. Since her early teens, the entrepreneur has periodically starved herself and lost weight before binge eating, she says.

She became public early in life and as a 14-15 year old it was difficult to deal with the negative comments on social media.

– The publicity itself contributed a lot to me wanting to fit in. And then that meant that I became very thin or I then compensated by eating a lot, she says and continues:

– Regardless of the weight, I was equally unhappy. There are none of the pictures I posted where I said: god how beautiful I was here. That thought has not existed at all.

Took sleeping pills because of the hunger

Her followers saw a successful entrepreneur and influencer but behind the scenes she struggled with her body image and vacillated between starving and binge eating.

– Either it has been that I have taken sleeping pills in the evenings to sleep away from the feelings of hunger. Or I have locked myself in my loneliness and bought home everything in the store and eaten it and had anxiety.

Declared healthy after a year of treatment

It was when she wrote the book Isabella that she realized how bad she had felt at times and then chose to seek help. Now she has just been declared healthy after 1 year and 3 months in an eating disorder clinic. She was just about to pay the down payment for liposuction when she got the call about the place at the clinic.

– When I started the eating disorder clinic, I thought: I will learn to eat and gain control over food, but then I will go to a clinic and change myself. But now that I’m healthy, I’ll never go there. There is no need. Today I feel nice and accepted and it’s awesome.

“Lost many years”

When she looks back on the years with an eating disorder, she feels a sadness that she could not enjoy life, she says.

– I have lost many years where I could have been happy. All the holidays when the kids have been playing with buckets and spades by the beach, I haven’t focused on them at all. But how do I look when I sit down.