“Why does it hurt me so much? It is a very big part of my life,” he continues. “When I come here, I come home. I know no better than that Elinkwijk is here on this holy ground. It feels so familiar. Soon it will only be memories, photos and videos. The most difficult moment seems to me to be when the stands really collapse, the goals are pulled off the field, the ground is plowed… I won’t watch that.”